No doubt for the last two weeks I have been slacking and I haven't blogged. I am kind of frustrated with myself for not blogging because it is quite soothing to me when I can do so. The last two weeks though I can say have been very difficult. I feel as if I use my blog too often to complain and let out my frustrations. Some of those who read and don't comment have let me know that they are concerned about me lately due to my words here. There is no doubt reason to be concerened, please keep me in your prayers, as I am feeling the load of my responsibility and the push from Satan right now. I seemed to have found myself in the refiner's fire, that I know.
I happened to have the chance to read "It's Not About me" by
Max Lucado It was quite an appropriate read for me because it helped me to re-realize that God getting the glory is what this life should be and ultimately is about. I say that because I am learning a lot right now.
Last week, I think might have been the worst week for me in a long time, but it seemed to be a week that was just compounded by one thing after the next. I am moving forward right now and making a lot of changes in my ministry, there will be what I call a major overhaul and many new things done. I think one of the most difficult things for me to deal with is the fact that I know I am not being supported right now by a person in our church who I have been through the fire with, the one I have gone to bat for, wailed in prayer for and begged God to encourage and strengthen. If that is how it is in ministry then I don't like it. See, I thought we were all in this together. I thought we were all working toward a common goal. One where we encourgaed each other, and lifted each other up. I pray for this person because they have it all mixed up, including their personal issues. I just pray God will open their eyes.
Father God, it is you who made the mountains and the seas, so even this is no problem for you. Thank you for building on shaky ground in me, for taking me and molding me. Please be with all of those who are attacked by Satan and his workers right now, you and only you can protect us! Please be with Brandon Scott as he foaces his struggles trials and frustrations, Lord, we know what this is about....it's your glory.
Psalm 79:9
Help us, O God our Savior,
for the glory of your name.
Jason Retherford said...
Chris,
As odd as this may sound I was encouraged by the honesty you exhibited on your blog and especially this post. I want to offer an encouraging word, and let you know that I will join you in prayer and the many others who are on thier knees on your behalf. I have used my blog as an outlet for my struggles and just when I coudn't see any light at the end of the tunnel, God amazed my by the comments that came in from a brother I have never met. He offered words of grace and strength to me when I was at down, and I pray that you are encouraged by these words and my mutual struggle.
In our weaknesses His strength is made complete or perfect!
A fellow struggler,
Jason Retherford
CL said...
Jason, Thanks a lot for the encouraging words, it is really nice to know when someone else understands and is/has dealing/dealt with similar issues, thanks again. God bless!
Jason Retherford said...
You are welcome! May His best be yours.
