Lately I have been sort of wishy washy. I have had a lot feelings and issues raging in my heart for several things and several reasons.
Last night my wife, Susan and I, had the opportunity to get some of those things out in the open. Not so much with each other, but with people who needed to hear it.
It was a time of some healing for us all...
We have struggled for a while...
We have been in a search for authentic, open, loving, and sharing community. Right now we haven't found it. I guess because the place we have been seeking it, just isn't the place that it will be found.
I have learned a lot about myself in the last few months, some day I will share those things, as ugly as they may or may not be. For today, here is what I will do:
I will praise God for my family. My wife Susan and daughter Hayden are His gifts to me.
I will be thankful that my family did not go through a nasty hurricane the way others did and still are.
I will take every opportunity to love others and be to them what Jesus would want me to be; caring, loving, and compassionate.
I will seek to follow Jesus wherever he might lead me.
I will try and give myself away everyday to someone, regardless of who they are or their status.
I will do a very bad job, but will still try, at not being so self-centered.
I will continue to listen for God's voice in all things....
In the end I will rejoice in the fact that I have been redeemed, and that His grace is sufficient for me.
May God grant you the brokeness to see yourself more clearly today.
k2 said...
and if i can be of assistance to help you with any of those things, all you have to do is hit me with your speed dial, dude. i'm there for you, if i can help.
Donna G said...
It is amazing how so many of us go through similiar emotions and upheavals at different times.
I hope you find what you are looking for.
and Happy Thanksgiving!
Jason Retherford said...
cl,
should you need to talk, you know you can call me too bro.
hang in there and hold on to Jesus
Neal said...
Thanks for the reminder of what a godly heart looks like. God bless.
