I got this from my buddy Ken:

" you have been tagged!
The rules:
1. Delve into your blog archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions. Ponder it for meaning, subtext or hidden agendas…
5. Tag five people to do the same. "

After I didn't respond quickly enough for his liking he sent me this: (Which actually, I appreciate, because he did the homework and I didn't really feel like doing it. So, since he did the work, I'll oblige.)


I think this is the 5th sentence in your 23rd post. Do you remember it? I put a comment on your last post asking about this. It's a game of tag, and you haven't acted on it. Do you still feel the same way about your leadership, now?
Thursday, August 19, 2004 8:33 AM
My plethora...
I don't think I have ever felt so supported in my ministry time, ever!"


The statement in question is:

"I don't think I have ever felt so supported in my ministry time, ever!"

Whew!

This is so totally loaded, I went back and actually reread the post for context (it's funny what that does for you, in a lot of cases)

As I reviewed I realized the significance of what I said, and why I said it.

Let me start by saying this; at that time I was feeling really good cause things were going my way.
That is the basis for what I said and why I said it. It's the honest truth.
Am I proud of it? Not really.
Was it true at that time? Yeah.
Is it still true today? Ummm, I'm not so sure that it isn't, but I am not so sure that it is.

I think we all go through difficult times, but honestly my times have been difficultt for a long time.

Is it because of something I did? No

Is it because of something I didn't do? Maybe, maybe not.

Ultimately though, it does have to do with that bold statement up there. Am I totally getting my way right now? No. So, If that makes me feel unsupported then shame on me. If having my way is what life was all about, I'd be a two-faced liar. Because I am always preaching, "it's not about me or you, it's about Him."

I tell everyone we need to live our lives in a way that responds to the gospel message, as if it is the true "good news." Let's live because Jesus lived, not just because He died!

Where am I going?

Over the last few months I have read about many of my blog buddy's who have been/are going through tough, tough times in ministry. Issues, in some cases, similar to mine. I have read as they have gracefully loved God, and encouraged others in the midst of making tough decisions. I am even proud of how they have handled themselves in the light of their circumstances - you know who you are.

So, then do I feel supported right now? No, not totally.

Is some of that my fault? Yeah, probably.

Is it really all about me in the first place? No, not at all.

I am trying to gain proper perspective in my life right now. And I hope and pray I am one step closer.

So, who else is "it?":

DJG
Neal W.
Brian Burkett
Jason Retherford
Amanda Williams

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 Donna G said...

Oh good, now I want have to think about what to post in the morning.....but I doubt if I will have such deep thoughts.

It will be fun!  

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 DaddyB said...

alright, alright... I don't usually play along on these, but since you live in Alabama, I'll do it this once.

Brian  

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